It's finally hot. I took the kids swimming this morning. Well, the girls anyway. Nathan got in trouble (pooped in his underwear) so he got to stay home with dad. Boy was he sad. We had the pool all to ourselves for about 20 minutes. Heaven! I'm insecure in my swim suit. Can't think of a time that I haven't been really. Kinda dumb.
I've spent the day cleaning. You would never know it. I'm ornery today. Actually, just this afternoon. Aaron isn't home for dinner again tonight. He may never know just what an important thing he is missing. I've tried and tried to express to him just how important his presence is. I don't think he gets it. I've married a hard worker. I'm grateful, but it is not without a great cost and sometimes I don't think it's worth it. I wish he wanted to be home more, to be with us more. There is always something to do, something to take him away, even when he's home. Ah, I'll stop complaining.
I love my kids. They drive me crazy though. Nathan tries my patience, but Hannah has been trying me lately too. I'm surrounded by women that appear to be the "perfect" mom, "perfect" wife, and have the "perfect" life. I hate the blogging world. I'm addicted to the blogging world. Sometimes I wish I lived far out in the country, on a little piece of land, with no Internet, no cell phones, and just the land to work on. Then my husband could be a cowboy and work the land and our kids would work along with him. I think I'd have a dozen kids if that were my life. I think I would enjoy a dozen kids if that were my life. Alas, it is not my life. I do have a pretty good life right where I'm at, it's just sometimes I get so down with the little things that aren't so great. I'm starting to ramble now. I have a meeting in a few minutes. Something to take my mind off of me. Hallelujah!
