The Blues

It seems that I get the blues every year about this time. This year it is because we are in quite a scuffle with Aaron's mom. It's a real doozy this time. It's heartbreaking really. Right at the holidays. Over something so silly. Not to down play her feelings because this is anything but silly to her, but to me, it's just down right ridiculous! To top it off, I don't agree with the way Aaron wants to handle this. The longer the time has passed the more I just want reach out to her, like we've always done, and rectify. This time, Aaron wants to let things settle for a while. A LONG while if needs be. I worry that more damage will be done in the long run. It's not up to me to decide. This is his mother and the anger runs thick between them both. In the meantime I am slightly riddled with guilt that one of her few joys (my assumption), her grandchildren, will not connect with her. Aaron doesn't want us talking with her unless she is willing to discuss things with him first. I don't blame him entirely for just wanting to distance us from her for a while. It does get incredibly tiring always trying to make sure we are saying the right things. But my gut says this is our trial to bear.....all of our lives if necessary. We can't just shut her out and feel good about it. I'm trying to let things settle some more. I'm trying to be supportive of Aaron. But in the mean time, I've got the blues over it.