Sick

Just want to document that I'm sick. I'm nautious. Nathan has diarrhea. I'm sick. Abigail will not poop in the toilet so I've been cleaning up a lot of poop as of late. I'm sick.

A surprise

I'm pregnant. I'm surprised. Noone knows other than myself. I just found out today however. Aaron and I knew we weren't finished having our family, but we decided to hold off until next summer for another one. I think I'm due in June or July. I feel naucious and tired. All the right signs.

I'm not ready for this, but I will welcome a new baby into our home. I've gotten teary today just looking at my other children. I already wish I could give them more of me than I do. Abigail's world will be rocked for sure. She has a complete cow if I'm holding another baby. How will she be? She is my little shadow and I wish time could just stop for a while so I can enjoy every little second with her.

Aaron and I are at a better place. We've had some rough patches lately, but we are committed to eachother and to working at our marriage. I'm sure he'll be happy, but I know it will stress him as well. We are not in the best financial place and it is a burden that weighs heavily on him.

Ready or not, baby #4 will be here next Summer.